Monday

So today I learned it is important to keep others secrets when they tell you not to tell anybody. Now i didnt do this to any body , but some one did this to one of my friends. It is not at all what christ would have us to do , to spread things ab0ut one another.

Sunday

Today was an over all good day. Although i really got to realize a few deep, but terrible things. First is that no matter how much you want to see someone, if they are deciving you down to the path of distruction you should see them period. I know that looks hard to comprehend and you probley dont get it. But i am not one to get decived, by people.

Saturday

So today I really had no signifiant thing happen in my life. It was good to have a relaxing day and finish it off i had a great serman @ church. It was good to not have so much drama in my life today, i wont lie it was great.

Friday

Today was an amazing day. My brother was at a sleep over so my sister my mom and i went out for a late late night on the town. It was a great time to have some fun time, we needed it. Wanna know what we did? If not too bad. lol. So first we went to Texas Road house and amzingly got thier befor the rush. Then we went to the mall for a few hours and had an absoult blast! Then we went to pick up a friend of mine ,and went to a nine forty movie. Bella, this story taught me alot. If you make a mistake you should own up to it and be courageous. This man was driving and not paying attention and hit this little girl. The friend in the car said lets get out of hear fast. But the guy sat thier and waited as the girls mom came out and started screaming. He held the women whoes daughter he had just killed. It had an amazing ending because he was later on after he got out of jail able to convience a woman not to get an abortion. He then raised the little girl until the mom was able to take her. An amazing movie. A must see!! For sure. Anyway we got home at like 12 omgosh! It was a fun healing learning experence.

thursday

Today was a neutral day. Not a whole lot happened, but i still learned an important lesson.I learned it is important to exept people even for thier flaws. No body is all good or all bad, but we all have both in us. It is neat to know that God can accept all types. He doest look at you and say nerd, jock, punk, looser, prep, but he accepts all who love him alike.

Another day has come and gone,
and i am left was has gone wrong,
what is this happening, what is this
im left gone amiss,
cluless and alone without no one to hold me
once again, left alone in the crowd no one is
looking down and im an left just to frown

I wake up to my little bro screaming and crying and yelling at my mom telling her everything is her faul... see my dad is his hero so even after all the horible thinks that he has done my dad maneges to make my little nine year brother think it is my poor moms fault. Sad right well what is sad is that threw all my little brothers pain he deals with it to be quite frank, is to be the biggest little jerk. What i have to struggle with is to not to punch him in his face while he just comes in my room when im minding my own busyness and just startes shooting me down reletlessly. It amazes me how mean he can really be. I dont quite understand his cause i have seen all crap my dad has done, but my brother just doesnt think about it and just endlessly forgives. I need to be like him in this way, but also not to be such a jerk back. Dear Jesus please give me srength.
My family has gone threw more pain then most i can honestly say this. More close deaths, lying, cheeting, abuse, than the average person. I dont know why God has choosen to impose so much hurt upon me, but i know some good has to come from everything. He says he uses evil for good for thoese who love him , and i do. Let the healing process begin....until tommorrow