I wake up to my little bro screaming and crying and yelling at my mom telling her everything is her faul... see my dad is his hero so even after all the horible thinks that he has done my dad maneges to make my little nine year brother think it is my poor moms fault. Sad right well what is sad is that threw all my little brothers pain he deals with it to be quite frank, is to be the biggest little jerk. What i have to struggle with is to not to punch him in his face while he just comes in my room when im minding my own busyness and just startes shooting me down reletlessly. It amazes me how mean he can really be. I dont quite understand his cause i have seen all crap my dad has done, but my brother just doesnt think about it and just endlessly forgives. I need to be like him in this way, but also not to be such a jerk back. Dear Jesus please give me srength.
My family has gone threw more pain then most i can honestly say this. More close deaths, lying, cheeting, abuse, than the average person. I dont know why God has choosen to impose so much hurt upon me, but i know some good has to come from everything. He says he uses evil for good for thoese who love him , and i do. Let the healing process begin....until tommorrow